Keeping Promises 

This is the story of a girl, and I promise to keep it that way. This is the story of MY girl, and I promise to keep HER that way. She’s all I’ll ever really need, and I promise I need her in every way. Some things are worth waiting for, and I promise she’s worth every second. If you were to ask her, she’d tell you she’s not perfect.. I promise to me she is. I made a vow to love her forever, and I promise I take that love with me everywhere. A long time has went by, but I promise I still think about her every day. She said she’d answer if I called.. But I promise her voice scares the life out of me. I love it when I make her smile.. And I promise I try every chance I get. My hands are so tired, but I promise I’ll never let go. If she ever needed someone there to pick up the pieces, I promise I’d sprint cross-country to dry her tears. If humans turn into fish today, I promise I’d swim the whole ocean, every river, creek, waterfall, lake, and pond to find this girl.. And if da planet was destroyed today I wouldn’t care.. Because I promise she’s my world. I’m just keeping promises. 

Airplane Mode

Memorized by her silhouette. Adjacent from what’s right without even having to thing about all the ways I love her. A gold medalist is my personal Olympics, she outperforms the competition by a long shot. That same long shot in the dark that causes the silhouette that I’m so memorized by. So you see how it’s always her, the girl in the story, that comes back around. A special type of somebody. Her body.. Who else? Nobody.. Tunnel Vision. I see her clearly. Way up there somewhere. Way down there, everywhere. The why’s and the how’s not important. Just tell me when and where and I’ll be there. Until then, silence.. Traveling through time and space.. On Airplane Mode. 

In Her World 

From the first time I saw her face.. Some 14 years ago, I knew I needed her in my life and I wanted to be a part of hers. Nothing compares to the feeling she gave me. Nothing comes close to the way she loved me. It’s one of those things that makes you happy to think about, but sad at the same time. I remember being naked making confessions while cuddling in the dark. Nothing else existed. Nothing else mattered. It was just us. I admit, it was always her, in my eyes, that made everything so much better than it should be. Cooking eggs in boy shorts doing a yoga tree pose. Truely amazing, I tell you. Nothing I say can paint the picture as I saw it. And that picture, I kept in a glass frame. I cherished her. I cherished us. I cherished we. However you want to put it, I cherished it. Just thinking about her sends my senses into overdrive. The was she smelled was intoxicating. The was she tasted exquisite. The way she felt was delicate. The way she sounded was angelic. The way she looked was AMAZING. Nobody will ever understand what it feels like.. To be…  In her world. 

Sanity 

You know how we all have that one thing that keeps us together? Composed? Some people may say that their mother’s cooking is comforting. Or the smell of fresh flowers. Or take the girl in the story, for example.. She’d say the beach. She loved the beach soo much. Well, I loved her so much that I gave her the beach. I gave her the sunshine. I wanted her to be happy. I’ve always lived near the beach until her and I got together. I can say that out of everything I’ve ever known, nothing has ever kept me more together.. More composed than she did. Geez, I miss her so much. Feels like I lost my best friend. Lost my favorite person in the world.. Lost the only person worth writin about. I lost my wife. It hurts, yal. It’s a pain that I can’t even begin to explain. All I can do is write this blog. I know she’s out there somewhere. Probably not being loved nowhere near the way she should be. But as long as she’s happy, that’s all that matters. I’ll always be here for her if she were ever to come back. Until then, I’ll just try to keep holding on.. Holding on.. To my sanity… 

I Just Can’t.. 

As much as I’d love to just let her go and move on, I just can’t. Everyday she’s still all that I ever think about. I can’t get her out of my head. I can’t get her out of my heart. In all honesty, I don’t want to ever let her go. She’ll never understand these feelings I have for her. She’ll never know how much I still love her. She’ll never know that I’m slowly dying from the inside out. I love her so much that I’ve left her alone completely. She means so much to me that I check on her silently everyday. She still the most beautiful girl in the world. I can’t imagine that would ever change. She still all I’ll ever want. I can’t imagine I’ll ever get. She’s still the love of my life.. I can’t imagine I’ll ever have another.. Let her go?? I’m sorry… But I just can’t.. I just can’t. I just can’t stop loving her.